Yesterday was Mother’s Day.
And it was the saddest Mother’s Day I had celebrated with my mother.
I love my mother alot. Beyond words can describe.
She is my pillar of strength. My motivation to excel. My everything.
I ordered food from her favorite restaurant. I ordered sunflower bouquet. I ordered a fluffy soft toy. I got everything that I know she would love.
But in my heart, I knew that she was not happy. She does not need to say it aloud. I just know it. It was a miserable attempt at trying to make the occasion a happy one.
The one thing she wants is not happening. My marriage.
And that left such a big void, that everything was drowned in it.
We just sat in front of the television. Making random comments. Pretending that we are happy and relaxed.
But I know how fake it was.
And it just broke my heard that I could not give her the one thing she wants. It just broke.